Naming My Dreams
As I stated in my blog on 12/31/13 “My God-Sized Dreams Unfolding” I knew very early in my life that my biggest dream was to have a baby, so naming that dream wasn’t difficult.
However, naming my dream of writing was and still is a whole different story! There were several times during reading Holley’s email devotionals & book “You’re made for a God-Sized Dream” that I felt a little prodding inside my heart about writing, but stuffed it back down & continued focusing on my ultimate dream of having a baby. I just didn’t see where I could have two life-long dreams come true! 🙂
As I was laying next to my husband in our bed one evening, talking about the day, I mentioned how very much I love writing. Without skipping a beat he simply responded with a question that has changed my life: “if you love writing so much, why aren’t you pursuing it?” I was speechless. I had never been asked that before. I have only ever had one writing supporter in my life and that is my Mother {which until now, I’ve never given ample credit for believing in my dream! Thank you Mom 🙂 }. My husbands question prodded questions from me like, “do you think I’m good enough?”, “do you really think I can do this?”, “what will I write about?”, “who do I write for & how do I find them?” To all these he responded with words of affirmation, encouragement & love, leaving the final decision up to me & God.
Since that evening, I have been praying for direction & guidance. I talked to my mom, who is not only my biggest fan and my prayer warrior, but my best friend. She had nothing but Godly encouragement for me, reminding me that she’s told me since I was in High School that God has gifted me with the ability to write from my heart. {I still well up with tears when I hear her say that}. I talked with one of my dearest mommy friends and she too confirmed that it’s time to write. So, I emailed with Holley Gerth about it & then just took the plunge!
Here I am. Knees shaking, tears flowing, and heart pounding. I have no idea where this journey will take me, all I know is that my heart feels like it’s going to implode with all that God wants to say through me {even though I haven’t the slightest clue what He wants to say!}. I’m just a vessel, willing & God-able. I can’t do this on my own; I’m relying on Him to give me His words as I write from my heart. May His anointing flow through my fingers, as prophesied over me when I was just a teenager. May my Words be His & may my feet go where He leads.
Here I am, for such a time as this.
Love,
Satin
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Thank you, Kristin! Appreciate the love & support from everyone. I’ve never been more scared & excited at the same time! 🙂
I received almost the same response from my husband and my mother. So I am attempting to take the plunge too. Let’s hold hands and jump together? 🙂
Awesome to hear I’m not alone, Sharon! Hand in hand, we’re on our way! 🙂 ♥
Satin, I love your courage and willingness to just go for it! What an exciting adventure!! Can’t wait to see where God takes your dreams 🙂 Thanks for your sweet comment on the GSD site today!
Thank you, Lisa for taking the time to visit my page & leaving such a sweet comment. Appreciate your support & give mine for GSD as well! Keep up the awesome Words! 🙂 ♥
God will reward your obedience! Stepping out, on the journey – not knowing where it will lead, just knowing you MUST begin – reminds me of Abraham. What a beautiful start!
You couldn’t be more spot on in your reference to Abraham! That’s about how I feel… I’m just walking!! 🙂 Thank you for the support & love ♥
I felt the same way when I first starting writing a few years ago. I choked down the desire and questioned God, because it wasn’t something I had EVER thought about pursuing. One day I started my blog and haven’t looked back. He always gives the words we just have to be obedient. Wishing you many blessings on your journey!
Wow, Alecia! Thank you so much for the beautiful words of encouragement through sharing your own experience! I loved your note! Thank you for taking the time to stop in, read & share! Appreciate your support on my journey! ♥