So I Wait
Anyone who knows me, knows the biggest dream of my heart is to be a mother, so I keep reminding myself that God is using this time of waiting to move mountains before He releases His little angel into our care. As much as I cling to that hope, and God’s promise to grant the desires of my heart, I’d be lying if I didn’t tell you that I wake up each morning with a sadness for what is to come, yet has not arrived.
These days I am clinging to Psalm 27:13:
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.”
So I Wait.
I am daily reminded of God’s goodness & faithfulness.
I talk to a sweet friend who experienced infertility for many years before having 4 children of her own. Another dear friend of mine thought having a baby was part of God’s plan, yet instead she was called to be a word mama and years later became the proud mama to an adopted 20 year old young lady! A new friend struggled with infertility and adoption, and is on this journey of waiting right along side me.
The point? I am not alone and neither are you!
Many of us are waiting together, so I want to whisper to your heart: the journey of waiting doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong.
Did you catch that?
Just because God doesn’t give us our “yes” right now, doesn’t mean we’re doing anything wrong, or that we’re failing some test we think He’s giving us. Life is simply not designed to be viewed with the natural eye. Jesus says in Matthew 11:15 “He who has ears to hear, let him hear.”
My understanding of this scripture is not that it means to “listen up”, rather it means to “tune in” to His heart for us; to hear His voice for us, to follow His call on us, and to have His ears in all circumstances of our lives. To be ONE with The One Who’s heart beats for us and Who longs to give us all good things. (Matthew 7:11 NLT)
A “no” today, often means a “yes” is on the way.
I look back on my life and how God answered my prayers with firm “no’s”. At the time I couldn’t understand why He said “no”, but now I see more clearly and can truly embrace with confidence that His timing is perfect, even when it’s not mine and even though I may not understand.
So I Wait.
“But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.”.
Isaiah 40:31 NKJV
Friend, whatever you are waiting for, trust the One who planted the desire in your heart, and hold fast to the hope that in His perfect time He will grant the desires of your heart. In the meantime, keep walking this journey and keep being YOU!
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Satin precious sister you heard right for though your wait seems long being a mom has been heard in the heart of the One who loves you beyond words. Oh and of course you are and will be again a great mom!xo
Praying for you… it has to be hard. we know the waiting is part of the process even if we don’t understand. God will hear your prayers I am sure of it. One day you will find the blessing you have been waiting for. I am sure.
Satin,
Wonderful encouraging words. Praying for you in your wait!
Dear Satin,
Words are never enough in times of waiting. I know. I groan with inner groanings. I waited for my children and now I wait that I may be able to remain with them. I remind my weary soul that God is not in a hurry, ask that God would be exalted in my body, and would conform me to His will for His glory. I thank God that He is working this very same in you, dear one.
I love your heart dear friend. You know I’m praying. We went through many years of secondary infertility and then enjoyed the blessed addition of our daughter through adoption. You are not alone. There are many who stand with you, and a Savior who loves you more than anything. Blessings and hugs.
Such an encouraging post. Holding you up in prayer as you wait. Love you!
Being in the middle is so hard. You have such an encouraging faith, even in the middle of the battle. Prayers for endurance, wisdom and many wonderful happy blessings. You are not alone in this, so many are enduring the same. Talking about it makes it less shameful, even though there is nothing to be ashamed of. Speak friend, we need your words!
God’s writing your story, even if you don’t know what’s coming next. It’s going to be a good one though. 🙂 Thanks for linking to my post.
I’m with you more than you know, Satin. {hugs}
No matter what we are waiting for, the wait is difficult. Prayed for you, before leaving this comment. May our God loose His hand & bless you with the desire of your heart. May He give you courage to hold on & continue on, knowing He has His best for you. Blessings!
Believing and hoping with you, friend, that God has good things ahead–even if they look different than we imagined in the beginning. XOXO
Amen. Waiting is SO hard, and God’s NO can feel like the end of the world. But I think He often has something better for us, whether it’s different timing or a different plan.
Beautiful – praying with you. My daughter walked this battle for about 7 years. Lots to say but I’ll keep it short. Failed infertility treatments – recently she did the big IVF or whatever you call it – she is expecting in January. We have walked this valley with her through the hurts and pains. You have put into words such wisdom to share with all going thru infertility. HUGS and prayers sweet one. Debbie
It’s a beautiful thing that you can hear God speaking during your waiting. Oh how I wish someone would have helped me know “waiting doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong” during my own infertility journey. (My son is now 9.) It can be a very, very dark and lonely place, and my heart is still so sensitive to other women on that path. But please know, too, that this message is one I really needed again today for a very different situation. God is always faithful, no matter what we are waiting for. Thank you.
You are in my prayers, Satin. He is faithful and knows the desires of your heart. Much love to you. xoxo
You’re going to be a great mom!! God’s timing is perfect and so is His plan! Praying for you as always sweet friend!! Love you <3