Choosing To Believe

August 28, 2014
butterfly on many flowers

Choosing To Believe


My last two posts have been about my struggle to fully be where I am and to release my control and fear to Jesus, clinging to His promise to always provide.

The word God impressed on my heart as for 2014, was believe. (Read more here)  God whispered to my heart, that this would be the year to take my belief from a verbal statement, to an action; a movement, a calling.

It amazes me how God always prepares His children for what is to come, even with just a word, if only we will have ears to hear!  Eight months ago I had no idea that I would be quitting my job of seven years to pursue our business full time!

Two weeks ago when I tendered my resignation to my employer, I had full intentions of working full-time through October 31st, helping with training and transition.

However, last week was horribly stressful for me. I ended up at home with migraines 2 of the 5 work-days. The stress of resigning, while still trying to keep everyone happy was taking it’s toll on my body, and God’s direction became clearer than ever: let go & fully believe His promise to provide.

When my heart says yes, sometimes God says no.

My heart longs to please people, and to be secure, yet God is asking me to let go of both.

I’ve never fully understood God’s ways, I just know them to be the best, so I often find my self blindly following His lead, while shaking my head dumbfounded at why!?

Before tendering my resignation, I had looked over our finances and felt confident that we could afford for me to quit on October 31st. I knew, “in the future”, God would need to provide, but we were good “until then”.

Quitting earlier than I had intended, puts me in a tail spin of head shaking and questioning why God is asking me to quit now and not when it looks to be easier! I am smiling as I type this, because truth is, believing God isn’t about seeing the results today! Believing God is about seeing His direction today and trusting His promises for tomorrow!

So on Monday, I revised my resignation, told my boss that Friday (tomorrow) would be my last day working full-time and that I’d be willing to work 20 hours a week until the end of September, in order to help with the training & transition.

I had to let go. I had to choose to believe God’s promise to provide and I had to accept “no” from my boss. The initial rejection of my offer hurt at my deepest core. It made me feel worthless and unappreciated.  I struggled feeling guilty for choosing obedience to God & my overall health & happiness, over choosing my boss.

However, as a result of my obedience and acceptance of God’s no, God changed my bosses heart! He found value in my position and accepted my gracious offer to help with the training and transition, and on my terms (God’s terms!).

When God promised He would always provide, He never promised it would be easy to believe that promise, but submitting to His will and choosing to believe, always yields the best results!

I am so grateful for this current chapter of my life; the one where God is teaching me the beauty of believing! I look forward to this next chapter and all He has in store for me and my family!

Thank you for your words of encouragement, love and prayers-you’re such a blessing to my life!

How may I pray for you, friend?



  1. susieklein on August 28, 2014 at 6:00 AM

    Oh Satin, I am teary eyed as I read this! God’s ways are SO different from our ways. Often they are even TOTALLY OPPOSITE our idea of the best way to do things! Right? My heart is with you on this crazy journey, I am there too. I am so grateful that our paths have crossed. You are not alone!

  2. susieklein on August 28, 2014 at 6:01 AM

    …And I LOVE the graphic you created! You won’t mind if I share it right?

    • Satin P on August 28, 2014 at 6:03 AM

      Absolutely share away!! 🙂 So thankful for our intersected paths-God has a way of shedding His light on the darkest of times! Love to you & THANK YOU for your words of affirmation and encouragement-always! ♥

  3. Simply Beth on August 28, 2014 at 10:37 AM

    You’ve been on my mind all week, Satin. I so admire you for how you’ve been listening and following. Beginning from when you need rest was needed. Because it starts with slowing down so we can hear Him. I just love witnessing how He is blessing you each step of the way. He is faithful! Love you so much. xoxo

  4. Monica on August 28, 2014 at 1:07 PM

    What a beautiful story of God’s provision Satin. Thank you so much for sharing.
    With much love,

  5. Sharyn on August 28, 2014 at 8:57 PM

    Satin blessings in abundance for walking out this journey of believing with is. Gpd loves your heart response to Him.
    You are doing good girl one step at a time.
    Oh what a foundation your life is laying for ypur little gamily.:)xo

  6. Sharyn on August 28, 2014 at 8:59 PM

    Oops sorry for typing erors. I meant “for your little family”. (blush)

  7. Barbie on August 28, 2014 at 10:39 PM

    I am so proud of you Satin, for stepping out in obedience to what you felt God was calling you to do, even though it was hard. He is always faithful, something I’ve been reminding myself of lately. I’m so excited for this next chapter of your life!

  8. Amy Hunt on September 2, 2014 at 3:09 AM

    God is always faithful and will bless our obedience, every time. This is so awesome how He stirred your heart to choose Him. Rich blessings of peace IN THE MIDST of uncertainty.

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Satin Pelfrey

Satin is a writer, wife and stepmom encouraging others through the hard days, bringing the Scriptures alive through life-application and drawing them closer to Jesus.

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